Over the last several months my children and I have been praying for… well, nothing short of a miracle. Do not fear, there is no emergency or immediate concern, but there is something we are really hoping that God will answer as a YES!
During the last five years I have had to completely rely on God for everything from food, necessities, housing, healing, and even for my very life to continue. He has been very faithful. It has not been easy by any means, but I have trusted Him and taken Him at His Word; He has always provided. I refused to give up my faith and belief in His promises even on the darkest and most difficult days. He has been so good to this undeserving daughter of the King!
But now this…
I have the faith… there are many times I “feel” the yes. Have I heard His voice on this issue? No. So this is where I become torn and have to rest assured that He has a plan, no matter what; then I dig deeper into what “Faith” really means to me.
My 3 1/2 year old son probably has more faith than any of us. Anytime our “request” is mentioned, he says, “Let’s pray… right now! We are going to walk in faith!” He speaks as if the prayer has already been answered. He has no doubts; he has the true, unwavering faith of a child. If only we could be so bold!
God says faith moves mountains, right? Do we really believe what we say we believe? Do we truly believe our faith… yeah, that faith the size of a mustard seed, can move a mountain?
“…Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matthew 17:20, NIV)
I searched Google to find out just how much the average mountain weighs. One number I came across was “20 billion tonnes”. Not sure exactly what a “tonnes” measurement was, I searched again (this was starting to get way too technical for me).
A “tonne” is a metric ton which equals 1000 kilograms (duh… right?).
So this particular mountain with a height of 2000 meters and a base of 10 square kilometers would roughly weigh 20000000000 metric tons (or 2.0e13 Kilograms). (Thank you Nick S. on Yahoo Answers for that bit of insightful information!!)
Maybe it is just me of little brain, but those are some numbers I can not even begin to fathom. And I am supposed to move it? With my faith? The size of a mustard seed?
Seriously folks, does that Being in the sky have any idea what He is talking about here??
Okay… I know He is probably speaking in more of a metaphorical sense; meaning our “mountainous” problems can be moved by our faith… yeah, yeah, yeah; whatever.
But what if God meant what He said. What if our faith could truly move any type or size of mountain? Would we believe it?
What if it required that faith like a child? That child that believes his father hung the moon?
Well, didn’t He?
If our heavenly Father truly hung the moon and every star and planet in our universe, having faith that He can move the mountains on our behalf would be child’s play, right?
What if it required us to have faith that did not doubt? Faith that produced something out of nothing? Faith that parted waters? Faith that breathed life into death?
If our heavenly Father truly created the earth by speaking it into existence, parted the Red Sea so that the Israelite people could cross on dry ground, and raised to life those people who had already experienced the taste of death… why in the world would we doubt what He could do in our little lives?
We are talking power! An Almighty, ground shaking, mountain crumbling power that maybe we just do not have the faith to truly see at its fullest.
I know… this is where that counter argument comes into play.
What about when God says No? What about when the healing does not come? What happens when the relationship fails anyway? What happens when the despair still sets in so deeply you can not see the light?
I get it. I ask those difficult questions of God all the time; and to be completely honest, I do not know. Sometimes we can pray so hard; we can pray without ceasing and still not get answers. We can do all the right things that He asks us to do… and still the outcome is very different than what we had hoped and believed.
Do those instances cause us to lose our faith? Do we Get angry with God and feel disappointed in Him; let down by Him? If we are being honest and real… then Yes, absolutely! God created this emotion within us and He understands. As Jesus prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane, He was in such anguish crying out to His Heavenly Father, that He sweat blood. If, in that desperation, God chose to still allow His own son to be crucified, than we have to prepare ourselves for those times of unanswered prayers… prepare for the “no’s.”
Seems a bit contradictory, doesn’t it?
So this is when our trust and faith truly get tested. Do we really believe what we say we believe?
If we really believe God is Omnipotent, then He really does have unlimited power; He really is able to do anything!
If we really believe God is Infinite, then He truly is limitless; He has no boundaries!
If we really believe God is Omniscient, then He has complete, universal knowledge, insight and understanding!
If we really believe God Loves us, then we can trust it is a perfect Love, despite our unworthiness!
If we really believe God is Gracious, then we have to believe that will give gifts to His children; and always remember that sometimes the best gifts do not have any monetary value!
So, if we really believe God is Sovereign, then we have to believe that because He is truly all-knowing and all-powerful, and loves us with a perfect love, that He has a plan…
… and in the end, it will ALL be good!
So we pray in Faith… big prayers with unshakable Faith.
And we trust… as if our lives depend on it.
And we believe until the very last moment… no doubts.
And we live out our faith by our actions!
“You see that [his] faith was cooperating with his works, and [his] faith was completed and reached its supreme expression [when he implemented it] by [good] works.” James 2:22 (AMP)
When the answer is Yes, we praise Him. We thank Him. We tell of His good deeds. We allow His light to shine through us so others will see His Glory and His power: and do not worry, there will be many, many times God will say YES in our lives!!
When the answer is No, we still praise Him. We still thank Him. We still continue to trust Him and His plan; and we still allow His light to shine through us so others will see His Glory and Power. However, do not fear the No’s (as there will be many of these in our lives as well)… this is when we can be stretched and allowed to grow in ways we never could have imagined.
Sometimes a No can lead to a more beautiful Yes! Trust me… I have many of these stories written in my priceless journals!!
So pray believing that as children of the King, as heirs with Christ to His Kingdom, that our Heavenly Father wants to graciously bestow gifts upon us! We must believe with all of our heart that if the gift is a little different that what we had expected, that our eternal reward will exceed our wildest expectations!
Maybe just a true trust, a faith in the complete impossible and a belief that HE CAN is all it really takes! No Doubts! No Plan B! The Faith of a Child!
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1, KJV)
May you find the beauty that comes in trusting God with an unwavering faith that HE CAN! May you find the beauty in today,
*I had written this post several weeks ago… but, I felt compelled to post it today, 11.11.14
“He has made everything beautiful in its time” (Ecclesiastes 3:11)
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Recent entries from my gratitude journal (to read more about this, click here):
485. God’s arms of protection around my daughter during her car accident
495. 42 years!
499. Crisp Autumn air!